I’m going to start off by stating that I’ve been playing halo since CE for the original xbox. I’m excited for halo 4 and am looking forward to November for this title. Lately I’ve just been so confused though. Is it me or did my game just completely fall off. I bought halo reach on the release date and played it on my original account. I barely played the game because it threw me off completely. I was so excited for this game and had no idea it was going to be the way it was. I have always been a competitive player since halo 2 and hated to lose, let alone do personally bad.
So since about February of this year I’ve been wanting to get back into halo, especially since I saw the trailer of the newest game. I popped in reach on my new account and started playing. I realized I’m not close to being as good as I used to be and it made sense. I mean I haven’t played halo since 2010. So I told myself I’m going to work at it and get my skill back. Overall I think I have gotten better, I have a good snipe, a decent DMR. My kd ratio is 1.11 which isn’t where I use to be but decent like I said. I just feel like I was in the hump that I just can’t get over. But today was different, I got pissed off so bad. I started playing MLG which is what I usually play and did decent without really any issues. I mean I didn’t go off but my game is improving there. I go on halo waypoint on the xbox and see this little feature where you can compare players. So I see myself compared to multiple players that have a 100 BPR, mines is 60. I played with these players and though some deserve it I’m definitely better than some of the ones I saw. So I concluded that they were playing easier playlist. I mean I know I never see them playing MLG. So I enter the arena. I figured we are still using DMR and I would play better in the arena over MLG. I got pissed and I’m overall just confused. I want to be really good when halo 4 comes out so that I can have a nice and smooth transition and play competitively and what not. What pissed me off and made me rage is the fact that I went like 5 and 21. Why? I ran into multiple people with shotguns and swords camping and killing me. This made me furious and like tempted me to keep running up back to get my revenge which only failed. I tossed my control and couldn’t take it. I really felt I was a bad player and can’t remember the last time I died at least 20 times. Idk it’s April now and though I seen improvement I’m not where I think I should be. I played other playlist and the AA such as armor lock is another thing I just can’t deal with. Is it just halo reach or did I just lose what I once had? I probably didn’t explain what I wanted to as good as I could have, but basically I just want to get better by the release of Halo 4 so I can be good in it. I feel like I’m a step away but when I have a game such as 5 and 21 it really gets to me and makes me think I shouldn’t waste my time trying to improve. I mean I do good in Halo 3 but I’m not going to waste my time playing it if halo 4 is going to be more like reach. Idk any help or advice would be appreciated. Maybe I just need help on limiting my deaths. I’m probably going to get bashed by people for this post but I just really want to get better and compete in Halo 4. Thanks for reading and if you read this far I appreciate it.
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