I do not know if anyone here can remember my brother… USATOPGEARUSA.
Well a long time ago he made This Thread.
My younger brother means the world too me. His depression took him too places so dark I can not even comprehend… He was like a mindless zombie. A blank wall just moving through life. The way he was. Was not living, it was more like every part of him was dead inside…Well before 343 announced “Halo 4” he was having a rough time with divorce. He was close to my mom, but she left without even looking back once…
It was so rough on my dad… I-I, can not even begin to explain…
For the first time in my entire life I witnessed My 52 year old dad and 18 year old brother hugging. In that moment I have never seen two people in more pain then they were in…
A few moths later our dog. The last friend my brother and I have left got diagnosed with stage three kidney cancer. She could not pee, and only could vomit bloody urine through her mouth once in a while… She was in so much pain!
She stopped eating and eventually walking. The look in her eyes was so sad and filled with so much pain that I could not even be around her… But my brother never left her side… She was yelping and shivering in pain weak from hunger. But my brother never left. All we could do to help her was get her put to sleep, but we could not even afford that… So she was forced to suffer. So my brother Sold every game he had, and sold the necklace my desceased grandfather made him to get money to put down his best friend…
After it was over, My brother could not handle it any more… One day My dad and I noticed he wasn’t staying near our dogs old bed anymore, and his door was closed. We go into his bedroom and see him convulsing on the floor. He over dosed on our moms anti-depressants she forgot about.
He was rushed to the ER… The attempt at suicide was like a walk in the park for me compared to what would happen next… After they revived him he actually ASKED for death… I came walking in the Hospital room, He was in so much pain he was screaming with tears pouring down his face, saying “PLEASE!!! PLEASE!.. All I’m asking is to just let me die! PLEASE”. My heart dropped. Hearing my only brother, my little brother who used to watch Pokemon and Dragonball Z and play with kids that no one else wanted to be around was know trying to kill himself… And BEGGING for death. And there was nothing I could do…
That’s when I learned of my dads depression. Later that day, My brother got released from the hospital and I drove him home to surprise our dad. We came in smiling (my brother was probably faking it but it wasn’t easy to even fake a smile in his state…).
We walked in and heard our dad… Crying. The guy who laughed at the idea of a man crying was now on his hands and knees, pleading with god to take his life and spare my brother and I.
But when 343 Announced Halo Combat Evolved Anniversary, my brother started eating and talking again. He started watching TV with my dad and I again. But when we heard of Halo 4… I GOT MY BROTHER BACK!!!
It was the miracle that can just in time. As time went on our lives improved. My dad got a job again, my brother made friends, and I got my brother. Halo 4 inspired us, motivated us and gave us the will to live… When Halo 4 was released the happiest days of our lives began. And with everything that 343 has done, and is doing it keeps getting better.
Whether or not you like Halo 4 is your own business. I am not here to judge. As a wise man once said… “You have the right to refuse me business, sleep with my wife, steal my food, and kill me… But you have no right to judge me”.
But regardless of any mistakes 343 has made it does not matter… As I have done things in my life that I am not proud of. But life should NEVER be about holding grudges and hating. Overlook the bad and see the only the goodness. Every rose has its thorn, every person has their hate, even the world will end on a certain date. But a person that can not forgive and forget is a person that can not let go. (If you think you need to let go of your pain, listen to This whole song and try not to cry).
So 343 THANK YOU! Thank you so much for everything. You gave us so much more than just a game. You gave what was left of my family, hope, inspiration, and passion. You gave my dad his favirote pass time do with his children, My brother the will to live, and you gave me my family back…
Halo 4 IS more than just a game. It’s the gift of life to one who wanted to end his own…