I think this is the only forum I can post fanfiction, so here it is. Mods, if this isn’t the right place, please let me know.
Okay…so I wrote this a while ago. Like a year or more ago…actually I don’t know for sure. But i thought it was interesting to enter John’s mind. Let me know what you think and if this sucks, or if this good. I know the writing isn’t polished, but hey…its just something I threw together. I actually made small edits to it today.
Confessions of the Master Chief
It all started when I was young…6 years old. I remember being happy. It was joyful to be young and full of energy. I was strong, smart, competitive, and most of all, lucky. That all changed forever once Doctor Halsey and Captain Keyes chose me. They plucked me out of many others that might have been as good, or better, than me. What that future held was not clear to me, since I was so young. I just went with it like any curious child. I had absolutely no clue to what I was getting into, how it would change me, both mentally and physically, change those around me, and how it was going to change humanity.
After training, after dealing with mission after mission with Insurrectionists, how easy it was to defeat them, and the brutality, the seemingly invincibility of the Covenant, I knew that my life wouldn’t ever return to what I could have had. Fighting them on Reach, Earth, Halo; there were many numbers of different species me, comrades, and other UNSC soldiers learned to defeat At times easy to get through, at times challenging, and sometimes very difficult to the point of near death. However, that somehow never got to me. It wasn’t just because of Cortana’s help. It was because of how scared I was about losing someone, or something, close to me. Fighting the Covenant on Reach, seeing many Marines die courageously in battle, witnessing how beat up Kelley and Linda were. They inspired me to never stop fighting. That in itself was something remarkable. While we were made to handle that level of torment and stress, even soldiers such as us felt something eventually. But during augmentation, those emotions were turned off. Suppressed more than any other group of soldiers before us. Sometimes I could see it in my squad by the way they talked, walked, how long it took to get a response over our com link.
Fighting alone most of the time on the Halo Rings, the Ark, and against the Flood took a bit of courage and patience, but I was just following orders. I did it without a second guess, yet there were times I wanted to stop for a moment and think….to stop and figure out what it was going to cost me, cost others, and cost humanity if the rings were fired. In fact, it would cost everything in existence. Once that was figured out, I didn’t care about the cost. I cared about the lives that were going to be saved, and how I imagined the Flood, the Covenant, would all be destroyed. No more. That all changed once I discovered the Prometheans on Requiem. I was fighting for the same cause, but I began to question orders, orders from people that I deemed lacking hindsight of what was going on. Why? Because I felt only I did, and I wanted those people issuing the orders to truly understand what effect they would have. Not many cared, so I did what I thought was best. I went for the Didact and dealt with him, but at the greatest cost to me. I never thought I would imagine life without Cortana. She was there all the time, and became my closest companion outside Blue Team. She understood me, what I was doing, and saved my life on numerous occasions, all while learning and teaching me about the true purpose of Halo. That debt I will never be able to repay, so long as another A.I joins the fight.
So I ask myself, “What does all this mean?” It means I’ve dealt with very large problems, and still am, but I am not as stone cold as many people believe I am. While I am a Spartan, I am also a person under this cocoon of armor. A person shredded through and through, but still a person that cares about others. To those that still aren’t convinced: I cannot force you to believe, but if you still are ignorant to what and who I am, pay attention to what will happen soon. You will see who I really am and to get in my way will only hinder you.
